In the last 6 months 6 people who are very dear to me or dear to those dear to me have passed away. 2 were heart things, 1 was cancer, 1 was complications due to dementia, 1 was a very unexpected lung thing and the latest was a strangulation.
The world is coming to an end! That is all I could think about. If everyone dies, how am I going to carry on? Why complete or start any of my projects? It’s not going to matter anyway.
I turned to God. I told Him I don’t believe that love is enough. I told Him there is so much pain and injustice in the world how could love matter? What good does love do? How can it overcome?
Then a couple of weeks ago the scripture about faith the size of a mustard seed was read in church. That is about the size of my faith lately. So very tiny in my pocket. I can’t even lay my hand on it.
But I carried on. Did the things on my to-do list. Tried to remember to smile and love the people I come into contact with each day.
And then a decision was made and all over Facebook were postings of
LOVE WINS!
LOVE WINS!
LOVE WINS!
I can tell you that seeing these posts has done my heart a lot of good to be able to read the answer to my questions.
Even though my faith is still a tiny seed right now and my heart still hurts, I rest assured that the important thing is to love.