Monthly Archives: August 2015

Bird on a Wire

bird on a wire

bird on a wire


I sat on the upper patio, waiting for the time to clock in. I was struck by the lines of the building and wires.  Very artsy. I wish my camera would have zoomed in a bit to show the curves of the bird better.

We think life can be put into straight lines and go according to plan. But that is not the case.  There are curves and bends in the journey.  We can’t plan for them but we can be watchful and come to a place of peace.

If I did not have this job at this time, I would not have seen this piece of art that I share with you today.

And in moments, I’ll stand up, go downstairs and clock in.  The bird will fly off and do what birds do.

Is Ashley Madison Hack an Answer to Prayer?

A number of years ago I read an article in the college newspaper about sex trafficking.  In the article, an 8 year old girl earns her captor over $40,000 a year and lives in a dog crate.

No one should have to live like this.  So I started praying for anyone and everyone who needed help. I pray for areas of injustice to be reveled and resolved.

Then things started happening in the news.  A woman in Germany who had been missing since she was 16 was found living in a bunker her father had built.  He had kept her captive all those years and even had grandchildren by his daughter.  The grandchildren also lived in the bunker.

They don’t now.

In another instance two young women who had been missing for years were found in an abandoned house, middle aged men had stolen them. And used them.

These women were returned to their families.

I was horrified that people have had to live in these conditions. Against their will. Then I remembered my prayer. Oh.

I continue to be mindful and keep this prayer high on my list.

I recently started praying for our leaders. Some it seems are not leaders but self-serving people who grab all they can get for themselves. They have set a different standard for their behavior.

We are all paying the price for this disparity.

Same prayer for justice, different focus. And interesting results.  Ashley Madison hacked, names reveled.

Is there something you can do? Why don’t you join me and also pray for justice and our leaders?


On Loving an Angry Man

Larry and Laura

Larry and Laura

I have heard people wonder why a woman won’t leave an abusive situation.  They don’t understand it isn’t an easy decision to make.  Many angry men will destroy those who try to leave.  This is a reality, look in the news. You will see many examples of women being met at work, home or even at restaurants and killed. In many cases even the children, other relatives and neighbors are not safe from this angry out lash.

But that doesn’t paint the whole picture either. There is love involved. Just because the other person is angry, destructive and abusive doesn’t make the love die.  Not right away anyways.

Angry men can be very charming and a delight to be around. So easy to love them when they are in the right mood. And then something makes them snap.  They tell you if you had only done this or not done that, they wouldn’t have lashed out.

So the woman adjusts to comply.  To get back the charming man. And he does return and its good again for a while. But the trick is she will never know when or what will set off the anger. More adjusting to comply.  In reality all this contorting only makes things worse.

Dad doesn’t look like an angry man in the picture. But he was. He was angry about a lot of things but mostly at his dad.  His dad died before I was born.  I don’t know if the kidney failure was sudden.  I do know Grandpa Atwell died within a week of having it. They didn’t have dialysis back then.

This unresolved relationship my dad had with his father, kept us from truly being able to connect for many years. Dad did get help when I was in high school and our relationship improved drastically. But it was because Dad did what he needed to do.

Dad had to do it. Not I. Women who love angry men think they can help, that their love will cure what is wrong.  This thought is a fallacy. Angry men who don’t do the work stay angry and love is blocked. They can’t fully receive it. And, Baby, it’s not your fault.

By the Light of a Blue Moon

Yesterday was a blue moon.  I went to the back yard to look at it when I got home from work. Nope, not there.

Then I thought maybe it is rising.  So I went out the front door and saw a beautiful sight.  Sometimes it’s nice to take a moment and look around.

The sunflower I’m standing by is really taller than it appears.  During one of the rain storms in May, this sunflower got knocked down.  I didn’t pull it up.  It kept growing.  There is a portion of the plant that is growing parallel to the ground and then straight up.

It was nice to have a sunflower at eye level greet me and enjoy the blue moon.

sunflower in blue moon

sunflower in blue moon