Tag Archives: Sunflowers

Irritating the People I Love

I’m not sure what it is about me that causes those I love to get so irritated/angry.

I know part of it is I am not living up to their expectations of who I should be.  My dad stopped talking to me when I married my second husband because I was making the same mistake.

I would have loved to have a conversation with him about why he thought that.  But it was causing him too much pain to see me making this choice.  However, I knew I wasn’t making the same mistake.  A mistake maybe, but I knew to ask more questions.

Unfortunately my second husband was lying to himself about what he wanted in life, so how could he be honest with me?  So the marriage didn’t last. And maybe Dad thought he was right.  But I learned more.

I have tried being who other people want me to be, but I die inside.  I can’t do if for very long.  It’s not the “I like scrambled eggs” because you like scrambled eggs.  It’s the I love you and want you to be happy changes I make.

And that backfires. So I stop trying so hard and focus on what I like that makes me happy.

Like letting a yard full of sunflowers grow in my backyard. If you don’t like it, you don’t have to come over.  I’ll visit with the birds and bees that are delighted to find such a field of sunshine. byfs

Sophie’s Sunflowers

Sophie sunfllower

Sophie’s sunflower

Silly people, I being one, we like to attach meanings and create alliterations.

I don’t know how much Sophie likes Sunflowers but I do know she has told her mother the flowers at school have told Sophie to pick them to give to mother.

so I would think she would like the jungle of sunflowers I have in my back yard.

I have picked a few to make this bouquet.  Sunflowers do not cooperate in vases very well.  AND the plants are very touchy-feely.  They dropped seeds on me as well as patted my back and head as I worked in the garden.

I brought the flowers into the house to surprise Sophie when she wakes up.  We are celebrating her birthday today.  Yesterday I brought her strawberries.

She will tell you she was born to eat strawberries.  An appropriate birthday gift to be sure.

I have been struggling with how hard life is and can be.  It is good to take a moment and look at how beautiful and good life can be.

And Miss Phie shared a strawberry with me!

Sunshine on a Stick

That is what someone told me recently that is what a sunflower is.  This is one in my backyard.  I’d have to agree.  Seeing the bloom makes my day.  There are many more buds and I’m looking forward to watching them unfold as well.

Its not as tall as the ones we had at the garden last year, otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to turn its head towards me to take the picture. I really like the way the background colors look cooler than the flower.  I think that is because the sun had fallen behind the fence and the yard was in the shade.